you can never say "it" enough

Hello all. I know, I'm a terrible person for not updating this in so long but so much has happened. Music is still my savior for certain situations, my boyfriend for others. There are some situation though where you need to curl up under the thickest blanket you can find with your ipod and try to tune out the world. Most of the time when I do it I want to forget I exist,... I haven't had many of those moments lately but it does happen. Sometimes that's the only way to pull ones self out of an abyss. Stop existing for as long as possible. Get lost in the music, follow the notes, really listen to the voices. Every breath, every crackle of their voice, it was meant for someone. Whether it's a "hope you feel better", a "I need you more than you know", a "why'd you leave me like this", a "I miss you", a "I never should have left", a "you're the greatest thing in my life", a "you lied to me" or a "I love you more than you could ever know" (that's the "it" by the way,... i love you) it was written for someone. One of the best things about a song is it can be taken so many different ways. What someone may see as a love song can actually be a song about a love or lover that has died. Rise Above This by Seether is viewed by some as an inspirational help song but was actually written about the suicide of the lead singer's brother. Recently I'd been listening to Her Morning Elegance by Oren Lavie, a song I'd heard a thousand times and I just realized it's actually about a woman who's trying to get on with her life after the death of her love. It's still a beautiful song but to me it now has more meaning. Right now, I'm listening to Crash Into Me by Dave Matthews. Have you ever really listened to the lyrics? Yes it's a song about his love for this person but it's also about sex. No one realizes this. Think about the lyrics for a minute, "crash into me and I'll come into you" or " hike up your skirt a little more and show your world to me". I'm not saying this is a horrible sick or dirty song but take it for what it is. I personally love this song, he's handled the subject matter tastefully. Time to stop for now. Hopefully more soon. Bye _Katie